Fault in our stars

Many of you might have already watched the movie and read the book , but still ,if there is someone who likes sharing viewpoint and tries to make meaning out of it, welcome to the overview of " Fault in our stars "as version of mine.So here we go-
How many people on the world instead of living , just kill time ?

How many people on the world ignore the simple beauty in life , beauty in just being alive and being human ? But of course, it is always not enough to be just human , dreams, goals, desires, ambition, love keep pushing us on the road in order to be more unsatisfied and satisfied....if we're unsatisfied , we keep moving and moving  escaping from the reality, refuse to find beauty in moment. 

How many of us uses advantages of those capacity of human being in a right way?
we keep complaining and complaining....do we stop and enjoy the moment ever? 
do we direct our capable emotions into the happiness ever? 
do we pursue to feel the happiness around us ever?
What makes us wanting to live more ?

To me,  i forget from time to time, since i am young and all i have is time, who can say that i am wasting it ? 
what i am trying to say is not that while we have a chance, let's live it to the fullest. The point is to live meaningfully, meaningful in the moment ,meaningful for the long term.Then we wouldn't have so much regret before dying.
These kind of endless questions came to my mind after i had finished reading the book.
Hazel Grace, 17 years old, have no choice, but to live just her daily life in ritual circle which packed up with endless doctor appointments, reality shows on the sofa, taking unpleasant medicine everyday, reading books, carrying around Philips which is named by her,equipment supporting her breathing , already gave up fantasies of love because of Thyroid cancer.It was a kind of very sad to compare myself to her, because while she was dying, i have many years to live on just according to my expectation.
 But we had same symptom which is depression.There was joke in past that women feel better when they see ugly one. I really don't wanna be one of them but yeah we had same depression. Because of social interaction lacking, of course she had more problems than those are described here. To her, depression is side effect of dying, to me , depression is not being able to find someone who can understand me and not being in deep soul touched friendship. On the surface , i might look like someone who has many friends, but inside , i am depressed really... anyway With her doctor and her mother's advice, Hazel Grace is convinced to attend The Support Group which is a kind of meeting with same problem to share their stories ,to comfort and encourage each other in the social interaction. There begins not a story of simple boy meets girl, simple story of beautiful love and life.

to be continued...